By Grace

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It was only a couple weeks after John passed, I had already been channeling his messages through automatic writing and connecting to his presence. Yet, I was struggling with intense grief and post traumatic stress from his loss. I was walking through the mountains one day and my mind was burdened by regrets of times I lost with him, opportunities to be with him that were lost, and I was in intense emotional pain as I entertained these thoughts.

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Out of the blue yet clear as the sky is blue came John's voice in my mind say "But Mama's, I am here now!" It shook me awake, out of the disturbing thoughts of the past and past regrets to being here now. I thought, wow, I am losing this precious time to be with John right here and now, by mentally leaving the present and lamenting, regretting and grieving the past.

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Yet, those regrets would return often, and again and again and again, John would interrupt my disempowering mental tapes of the past and the regrets with his truth... "But Mama's, I am here with you right now" Every time was a wake up call... to train my mind to get out of the past, to turn my attention away from mental pain loops that spiralled me into emotional hell, and be here now.

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Every time he would invite my mind to focus on the present moment truth that he is with me always... just in a new form... a spiritual form. He would remind me that my non-physical Self and his non-physical Self are always One, always together, always unified in more ways than one can count. That he is right here with me, just at a different frequency that the human sensory equipment couldn't perceive.

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John began physically manifesting for many people, many times and although this was a great joy and comfort to me, I was greatly desiring him to manifest for me in the physical. It was four years since John passed and I was still hearing about him manifesting for others, and really wanted him to show up for me.

 

So I had a ceremony again, lighting candles and praying for him to appear for me in the physical, like he was for so many others.

 

I continued the ceremony late into the night and early in the morning till about 2 am when I decided that tonight wasn't the night for a manifestation. So before I went to bed I asked him if he couldn't manifest for me that night, if he could physically manifest and visit one of my very psychic friends and give me a message through them, I invited him to share whatever is most needed to know at this time.

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The next morning a friend reported at 2 am... the same time I was saying the prayer to John, her phone began blowing up with text alerts that woke her up. She looked at her phone and there were no new texts. She lay back down and before she fell back to sleep she heard a knock on her front door. She is a medium and often get's visits from Spirits, so she mentally told the Spirit they would need to come up to her bedroom if they needed to speak. 

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She heard gentle footsteps walking through the house and up the stairs... then her son... who often brings messages from the other side, came into her bedroom. She sat up and asked him if he was ok. Her son looked her straight in the eyes, and said loud and clear...

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"Mama, do you know I am here now?"

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Then he went straight to bed. 

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My friend intuitively knew it was John's energy sending the message and she shared the story with me the very next day. She had no idea at that same time I had asked John to manifest and send a message. She also had no idea that he had been sending me that same message over and over again for 4 years since he passed.

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I guess the most important message John wishes for me to know and for all those who have lost a loved one to know is that they are always still with us, right here and right now. We can only experience them in the present moment, they help us to be present to the miracles that are always right here now.

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"Another Miracle!"

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